My disenchantment of my ancestor

Honestly after learning the truth about the killing of the Sheriff and reading all of the posts on the Officer Down Memorial page, I barely wanted to continue.  It was in this moment I realized all of the scars that the Daughertys, the town of Uvalde and the Owens family held.  The only picture I have seen of WSB is a harsh one.  He looks like a hard cowboy who hadn't had anything descent to eat except a mouthful of dry Corn Dodgers.  I once read in a post of a fellow genealogist that said you cannot judge the historical facts with the current morality.  I cannot excuse the human suffering that I know he witnessed and   caused, because a human cannot see suffering or cause suffering without recognizing it for what it is.  A human cannot watch death, cause grief and treat people ill without their soul being affected.  I try to imagine the fear of thinking that Billie could be wrongly hanged in the courthouse.  Maybe he was trying to minimize the damage between Robert and Daugherty and hoping it would not affect Billie. I cannot know his heart.   

 http://www.odmp.org/officer/reflections/3817-sheriff-john-quincy-daugherty-sr 

The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that there was a family that was torn apart and I can help mend this in some small way. 

As I continue this journey following WSB Owens, I continue to hope for the best.  I recognize that he was a father who already lost sons, Joseph to a case of dropsy (tonsillitis) who is buried outside Helena, Texas , and one to a gun battle. He was an indian fighter, a settler of Florida Territory, fought in the Seminole Indian war.  He placed himself on Texas Ranger muster rolls and was elected Justice of the Peace.  He signed a petition to make Uvalde province a true Texas County and was a land and cattle owner.  

Our tapestry is interwoven with his gumption, his bravery, his strength and also his murderous ways and his disregard of the worth of land and his disrespect for humans. I truly find it difficult to celebrate him as a hero of Texas for all his wrongdoings color my opinion of him.  My father said, "you always hope and believe that your family is honorable."   I would like to believe that at one point in time he was.